Why spending Christmas with my family means so much to me

I never really liked the Christmas period. Noisy, messy, too many routine changes and bright lights everywhere. I have always loved the day itself though. That’s why, when I was put into residential care aged 21, Christmas became a time of sadness, a time to remember what I didn’t have. I got put into care because…

Impulses and duct tape

I am currently sat with a pair of wireless headphones on. The trouble is, I am listening to Tommy and keep shaking my head around! I grabbed my duct tape and strapped them on. Caught some hair in the process (ouch…) but now they sit like a dream… So I am feeling a lot better…

Pinball wizard writing block

So as you all (all three of my followers) know, I can write pretty well. It seems, however, that when I am given a deadline, a topic and told to put in text citations, my brain turns into mush. I am starting to wonder whether taking on a course with such a theoretical subject (people,…

Autism Definitely has talent!

On the 11th May 2014, I took part in the third year of Autism’s got Talent at the Mermaid theatre, London. A night showcasing autistic performers from around the UK (and even Italy!) and giving them a well deserved night in the spotlight. I’m the small one on the second row left dressed like Eponine…

Grief in autism

  I received some terrible news on Boxing day morning (26th December 2013). My much loved pet rabbit, Ralph passed away from unknown causes. He had been poorly for a few weeks, with sudden, unexplained weight loss, but even after lots of tests the reason could not be found.    This brings me onto the…

My new beginning in ruins – Part one

I had not written this as an intended blog post, instead I had wrote it to add to my ever expanding autobiography. I guess you can call this a sneak peek. I want to share it though, because this is about the week that I followed my dreams then lost them. I haven’t written part…

Autism; disability or gift?

Is autism a disability? This question has been floating around the internet a lot recently, especially as it is autism awareness month (April). Opinions seem to be divided. Some people on the spectrum think it isn’t, whereas someone else on the spectrum might think it is. Others are baffled as to how their child’s autism…

When good change goes bad

There is one thing in life that is inevitable and also the cause of most of my anxieties and frustration. Change. Not the stuff you keep in your pockets though, I am referring to change as in a situation changing. There are changes to everyone’s lives that can ruin an entire day. Like if you…

Don’t you think that if I were wrong, I’d know it?

Theory of mind. It is a widely debated subject, by professionals, parents and autistic people themselves. Personally, I feel that the words make sense and that I do indeed suffer from an impairment of ToM. As I have grown older however, my Theory of Mind skills have improved significantly. I still remember the day, two…

The curse of the obsession

One of the parts of my autism is that I get intense obsessions. I have been like this ever since I was a child. I have always noticed the intensity of my obsession is a lot stronger than most of my peers and that I am more likely to continue liking the same thing for…